Love to live; live to love.

If you just walked away, what could i really say? Would it matter anyway? Would it change how you feel?

I was the mess you chose, the closet you cannot close, the devil in you I suppose. Cus the wounds never heal.

But everything changes…

“You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight ‘cause I wanna feel something
And you do what you want ‘cause I’m not what you wanted

Oh what a shame
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away
No use defending words that you will never say

And now that I’m sitting here thinking it through
I’ve never been anywhere cold as you.”

“Only you
I choose among the entire world.
Is it fair of you
letting me be unhappy?

My heart is a pen in your hand.
It is all up to you
to write me happy or sad.

I see only what you reveal
and live as you say.
All my feelings have the color
you desire to paint.

From the beginning to the end,
no one but you.

Please make my future
better than the past.

When you hide I change
to a Godless person,
and when you appear,
I find my faith.

Don’t expect to find
any more in me
than what you give.

Don’t search for
hidden pockets because
I’ve shown you that
all I have is all you gave.”

-Rumi

“If they did tests on my heart
I think that maybe they would start believing
All the stories that I tell them
Like how sometimes I can barely breathe
For no apparent reason other than I thought some bad thoughts
These nerves are falling apart
And my fingernails stay short
I keep telling myself “You’ve got to get over yourself”

I don’t want you to save me
‘Cause what if you did, you’d succeed
And then you would get bored and leave
I’d be back at square one
And that is such a bad place to begin”

-Umbrellas

“I’m a coward. I hide behind all these delicate lies that I sing. But I’m trying to come clean.

I’m so lonely. Surrounded by people that know me but don’t know a thing. So I’m trying to come clean.

In every relationship I’ve ever been in has fallen apart at the seams. And I’m just afraid I’ve been singing about love but I’ll never find out what it means.

And if I was honest about what the problem is I’d have to admit that it’s me. I’m just trying to live up to all that you want me to be.

I’m a liar. I sing pretty things but I never quite say what I mean. So I’m trying to come clean.

I’m so sorry. I know that I can’t take it back, no I can’t change a thing. So I’m trying to come clean.

In every relationship I’ve ever been in has fallen apart at the seams. And I’m just afraid I’ve been singing about love but I’ll never find out what it means.

And if I was honest about what the problem is I’d have to admit that it’s me. I’m just trying to live up to all that you want me to be.”